Making Memories

As I sit here typing this my heart is breaking. A friend of mine lost her husband last night. She is a widow at the age of 31, her daughter lost her father at the age of 4. There truly are no words for my sadness. This was not unexpected she knew when she married him that he had a terminal illness and would one day be a young widow and single mom. She spent the last several months tending to his every need and making memories with him and her daughter K everyday. She lived every moment to its fullest never knowing when it would be his last. She will never feel his arms around her again, she will never share her day with him knowing he will laugh with her at the good times and hold her up for the bad, her daughter will never hear her father tell her she is beautiful or dance with him at her wedding. They have lost so much, yet life goes on. She is putting one foot in front of the other, she will continue to live, she will continue to make memories and be a Mom to that oh so sweet little girl, she will continue to go on because life does not stop.

So today as my heart is breaking for the W family I will play a little longer with the kids, read that book one more time, sing that song again and again, we will play candy land and shoots and ladders over and over, we will laugh we will dance and we will make memories.Today when Andrew comes home from work I will hold on to that hug a little longer, tell him I love him a little more, kiss him and memorize everything about him. I will spend hours talking to him and telling him how much he means to me. The laundry from our trip will not get done, the dishes will stay in the sink, and the playroom will remain a disaster. Today I will live like it is our last moment, our last time together, because it could be it might be. I will try to live life to its fullest, I will stop and smell the roses. I will enjoy my role as wife and mother knowing that it could be taken from me in the fraction of a second.

My heart is breaking my tears are frequent, but my laughter will drown them out for right now I have it all and I will make the most of every moment.