This is my favorite picture of all time. I took it with a point and shoot when Emma was in the NICU. No fancy camera, no fancy flash and no edits this is real. Real life. For some reason this picture keeps coming back into my mind. I want to do something with it, maybe a canvas or just a large print. I can't really decide, all I know is I feel it deserves a prominent place in our house. This picture means so much to me.
I still remember every moment of Emma being in the NICU. She went into the NICU on Tuesday morning. We got the call Thursday morning at 4 am that they needed to put a chest tube in . I crawled into bed with Andrew at our room at the Ronald McDonald house, I was sad, confused and spent. Andrew said, do you want to go over? He knew me so well. We dressed quickly and walked to the hospital long before the sun was up. By the time we got there Emma was sleeping and the chest tube was in place. This meant that we would have to wait at least 4 more days to hold our daughter. My arms and heart ached. We were trying to be strong for each but so lost in our own sorrow. This was not how we imagined the birth of our first child to go, this was not the dream we had imagined. Andrew leaned over Emma, we were so tired. I picked up the camera and took the picture.
It is all there. The sorrow, pain and confusion. When would we be able to hold her? When would we be able to take her home. Would we ever take her home? Did God give her to us to take her away again? We were so unsure about everything. We prayed like there was no tomorrow. We thanked God for this amazing gift and begged for her life.
I think this is why this picture has been in my mind lately. We so often turn to God in times of need, sorrow or pain. How often do we turn to him to praise him and thank him for the gifts we have been given? Our life is so wonderful right now, we are living the dream. We are happy, successful and our family is healthy and perfect. I am not so good at going to God in times like this, life gets in the way I forget. I think God uses this picture to remind me that he carries us through it all. He has plans for our life and we need to turn to him in sorrow, pain and joy. So I will work on praising him loving him and turning to him in all times.
Life is great, painful, and confusing. Just like Emma's time in the NICU. It is not always pretty, but it is real. Thank you God for giving us so much and reminding me to praise you always!
I still remember every moment of Emma being in the NICU. She went into the NICU on Tuesday morning. We got the call Thursday morning at 4 am that they needed to put a chest tube in . I crawled into bed with Andrew at our room at the Ronald McDonald house, I was sad, confused and spent. Andrew said, do you want to go over? He knew me so well. We dressed quickly and walked to the hospital long before the sun was up. By the time we got there Emma was sleeping and the chest tube was in place. This meant that we would have to wait at least 4 more days to hold our daughter. My arms and heart ached. We were trying to be strong for each but so lost in our own sorrow. This was not how we imagined the birth of our first child to go, this was not the dream we had imagined. Andrew leaned over Emma, we were so tired. I picked up the camera and took the picture.
It is all there. The sorrow, pain and confusion. When would we be able to hold her? When would we be able to take her home. Would we ever take her home? Did God give her to us to take her away again? We were so unsure about everything. We prayed like there was no tomorrow. We thanked God for this amazing gift and begged for her life.
I think this is why this picture has been in my mind lately. We so often turn to God in times of need, sorrow or pain. How often do we turn to him to praise him and thank him for the gifts we have been given? Our life is so wonderful right now, we are living the dream. We are happy, successful and our family is healthy and perfect. I am not so good at going to God in times like this, life gets in the way I forget. I think God uses this picture to remind me that he carries us through it all. He has plans for our life and we need to turn to him in sorrow, pain and joy. So I will work on praising him loving him and turning to him in all times.
Life is great, painful, and confusing. Just like Emma's time in the NICU. It is not always pretty, but it is real. Thank you God for giving us so much and reminding me to praise you always!
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